It has been 5 months since it all began. Five months of tests and still unknowns. You would figure that by now there would be some sort of answer. There isn't. First they thought it was Multiple Sclerosis (MS for short). The symptoms are all there, they all point to it, but the tests came back negative (aside from a lesion found on my brain.) Now they think it may have been strokes. Strokes?!! So more tests are being done. More visits to the neurologists, more blood work drawn, more MRI's, more waiting. The waiting is the hardest part. I think if I just knew what was wrong I could deal with it and move one. Right? Maybe it is just an illusion, maybe that will be the case. On the mean time, I hate being in limbo. The unknown can be scary.
Out of all this unknown though, there is one thing I have learned. It is to let go. To let things be. To enjoy the now. Dishes can wait, laundry can wait, housework can wait, even blogging can wait. Those things will always be there for me to do, they are never ending tasks, they aren't as important as spending all my energy (as much or as little as I may have) with my family and friends:
Cuddling with my hubby to watch his favorite show (okay maybe not his favorite, it's just too gruesome for me, but close enough.)
Snuggling with my little ones while they fall asleep.
Snuggling with my little ones while they fall asleep.
Leaving an untidy kitchen indoors to spend time out back around the fire pit roasting marshmallows.
Inviting friends (and the lot of kids) over for a late morning brunch.
Having long phone conversations with my family far away.
Sleeping in when ever I can.
Taking it slow...or slower.
Yes this are the things I have learned this past few months of unknowns.
As they say:
After a storm comes a rainbow.
I am trying to find rainbow where ever I can.
After a storm comes a rainbow.
I am trying to find rainbow where ever I can.
Happy week friends.
Oh sweetie. I am so sorry for all that you're going through. I pray that you find peace in all this turmoil and that a resolutions is close at hand. Abrazos!!!!
ReplyDeleteA great attitude, Lisa. I hope they find some answers for you soon.
ReplyDeleteSending you thoughts of support. You have the attitude that will get you through whatever gets placed in your path. Thank you for sharing this reminder of what really matters.
ReplyDeleteWaiting is tough. You are doing it right. Take the time to relax and enjoy now. So when you get some answers and its time to battle whatever it is you have to battle you are ready for victory!
ReplyDeleteLisa, I had no idea you were going through this. The waiting and unknowns of diagnosing medical issues is scary, I completely understand and I've been there. I hope you have answers soon that give you comfort so you can start treating and healing... for now, your beautiful attitude and the lessons you've learned are inspiring.
ReplyDeleteBesos y abrazos. Here if you need me.
Dearest Lisa,
ReplyDeleteWishing for you peace, comfort, strength, and healing. May God hold you and your family very close.
Un abrazo...
I am so sorry to learn that you have been going through such difficult times. You have a beautiful soul and I am sending you much love.
ReplyDeleteLisa, I want to squeeze and hug you tight. Your beautiful soul is so present in this and that is what will shine brighter than anything else. There can be no darkness where there is light. Keep it on and on and on.
ReplyDeleteYou have us here anytime for support, laughs or anything!!!!
Hoping you get your answers soon. Lots of hugs to you. I love your positivity and I'm sure that will carry you through. <3
ReplyDeleteLisa, I do hope they're able to find you an answer soon, so you can find your rainbow. I love that you're taking time to enjoy the now while you wait. That's a great attitude, amiga. Wishing nothing but the best for you and your family.
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